A heart-wrenching testimony from Israel in the early months following the Gaza war. How does one resist in a country polarized by the actions of its leaders? After the Hamas attacks on Israel on October 7, 2023, Dror Mishani begins writing a diary to try to make sense of the barbarity. As the months pass, with the Gaza war ongoing, it becomes increasingly difficult to see clearly amid the sound of sirens and martial slogans. Without ever expressing it militantly, his position—minority in Israel—is clear: responding to horror with more horror will only distance any possibility of a solution. A lucid and nuanced testimony from an author trying to think for himself in an increasingly polarized environment.